In recent weeks I catch myself in a blank stare, reminiscing about high school and what if things would have worked out a certain way. I wonder about the friendships I made and lost, what would have become of them if things did not work out the way they did. I almost wonder if I could temporarily go back and see the outcome if things would have been different.
Better yet, if the future version of myself could visit the past me and warn myself not to be immature and think things through. Save myself from the little mistakes which still hold a wound within my heart. In retrospect those mistakes and memories saved me. They remind me of who I am and who I've become.
Not only is high school leaving a painted picture in my thoughts, but so is my childhood. It hits me more and more everyday that I'm leaving for school in the Fall. Even though my family does not say it, I know they struggle with this idea everyday. I guess that's why they annoy me everyday, to remind me of what I have at home. Also, seeing my brother and sister grow up and my friend's siblings grow up is also a reminder of how fast life goes by.
There are so many things I wish I could go back and do. Whether it be saying sorry to someone I hurt, making an effort to fix a tampered friendship, or just savor the moments that make life worth living.
What I have come to realize in the past couple of days is that your friends and family are your support system. When all else fails, they are there. Life is about making memories and embracing the ones that made you who you are today.
Life is too short to be spent unhappy, unsatisfied, and unappreciative.
So my advice for you today is: Make a memory.
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